February 23, 2021, 23:34 | In the world
I don't know what to do next.
I'm forty-four years old and I live alone. I have two adult children who have been living separately for a long time and have their own families. My husband and I divorced after twenty years of marriage, Ukr.Media informs.
In an instant, we simply decided that we were interfering with each other's lives and went our separate ways. It was quiet and peaceful, without insults and without tantrums.
The children try to visit me as often as possible, but this does not help me get rid of the terrible feeling of loneliness.
Recently, a new man appeared in my life and I was very happy about it. I immediately trusted him and plunged headlong into the whirlpool. It was only later that I realized that I had made the biggest mistake in my life, but it was too late. I'm pregnant. I don't know what to do next. I do not dare to have an abortion, because killing your child with your own hands is a crime. However, giving birth at my age is scary and dangerous. Moreover, there is a risk to my health and life, not only mine, but also that of the child.
I stopped communicating with the father of my unborn child. More precisely, he stopped communicating with me when I told him about everything.
I understand that late pregnancy has many contraindications and dangers, but I want this baby so much! I will give him life, and he will give me a new meaning. I will never be alone. Yes, I will be an “old woman” for him all my life. mother, but he will live and that is the most important thing. I will do everything that depends on me to give him a decent life and a way into the adult world.
Now the thing that scares me the most is a visit to the doctor. I'm afraid that he will start to dissuade me from pregnancy or even embarrass me when he finds out that at the age of 44 I fell in love with a man I hardly know.
And I still don't know how to tell my daughter and son about my pregnancy. How will they react to such news? What will they say? Will they support me or condemn me?
I am filled with mixed feelings. On the one hand, I am glad, because now there is a chance to get rid of loneliness. On the other hand, I don't know if I will be able to give my child a decent life. A mother's love and care is good, but in addition to this, you need to have certain material goods, which I do not have… and I am also very afraid that my late pregnancy may harm my child and the child may be born with birth defects or have some abnormalities.
A few days ago, I gathered my thoughts and decided to call my daughter. She reacted to such news calmly. My daughter advised me to have an abortion after all. She found the right arguments and I cannot disagree with her. It is really dangerous and very irresponsible to give birth at my age, considering that I do not have good health and confidence in the future.