Anna IVANENKO, “FACTS”
“FACTS” courtesy of Natalia Orlyanskaya publish her diary to combat severe cancer — inoperable adenocarcinoma of the lung fourth degree with bone metastases, diagnosed in January 2019. For those who can help Natalia, report the number of cards of PrivatBank: 5168 7450 1712 4394, Orlyanskaya Natalia Anatolievna.
17.03.2020. Lottery. Finally found a suitable definition for the epidemic of coronavirus in Ukraine. Lottery. And so, you know, not too clean.
I have not read avidly all the garbage that is lavishly poured onto the vast web in recent times. But something podchitali — tested sources, Western scholars and experts. News from our great power, too, of course, know. I have good instincts (when much helped in the work). So.
All my instincts yell direct: Ukraine to an outbreak of the virus is not ready. Almost. We’ll find out as soon as the coronavirus will begin to diagnose more or less EN masse.
In fact, infected is much more than declared 7 cases — just no one reveals. Because if they start, will quickly reveal this is the unwillingness and lack of everything.
Quarantine and isolation especially is a great move. First, do a little ping distribution. But the main delay demonstration of the incompetence of the government, and the failure of preparations for the outbreak.
Still, of course, helps that blown media panic completely discourages a lot of brains. Very convenient, Yes.
#cancer_girl calm. Not that panic, even alarm is not observed. I think this is because the second year of living with a fatal diagnosis and of death are not afraid. It is my objective reality. Yes, we’re all going to die, but I used to. The coronavirus my emotions can be described with the words “annoyance” and “nuisance”. Annoying that this infection strongly up my long-awaited (and perhaps the last) spring.
It’s a damn shame about my diagnosis, pick up a coronavirus. But then I think: if Death does have a no list, #cancer_girl it for a long time. So it makes no sense to duplicate me another list, huh? Oh, and I also hope (I know that sounds strange, but feel) that the #parachoc in which case will not give his cancer the girl some kind of virus. We have lived, and all Natasha is his territory.
Get sick, of course, is not desirable. Because to treat me, no one will. When you lack JUST, for example, devices of artificial ventilation of lungs, I become a valid loss. The device is absolutely logically connects patient who has a good chance to recover. A patient with an incurable form of cancer — not the case.
And quarantine my mother observed. As best I can. Because to take at a time polmagazina grub nor I, nor she are not able to. So, go out and buy. Yes, both at-risk: it is age, I’m on a dead immune system. Well, Stoch. Started the habit of daily washing the floor with bleach and end-to-end, with the door open, ventilation. My hands after street this hell-alkaline soap) into the nose when going out — oxolinic ointment. Placebo, Yes, but high will. The most difficult not to touch on the street face. I prilovchilis — worn regular season gloves — and that they specifically inhibit overtures to face.
Walking in the Park side by side — the little people, the air is wonderful. From these walks are going to give up.
Money on the drug gather, low, need another course to CT. So, who wants to watch a potentially cancer epidemics, — Wellcome. I always thank for any help. Who knows, if you do not properley maybe tote fouled. Personally, I would put on cancer. Yes, I have a black humor.
I wish you health and emotional balance!
To play with state gambling bullshit, but why not if the situation has, unfortunately, made for us? Let’s play. Do what depends on us. Will survive and will survive.
PY. Sy. But issues with buying toilet paper I don’t get it. That is arid we have an optimist? Knows that hunger does not threaten him. And hygiene the fifth point is very important, yeah.
22.03.2020. This wonderful pseudotime day will entertain you with troch. There is some interest in how acquires bald head #cancer_girl. Vot.
Strannenko cluttered. On top of the bald spot, bald spot on the left, but the back — amazing growing tuft of black (!) hair. But the rest of the vegetation — muddy gray. My good relatives gently say “pussy”. And I think Martian lisiny Chi, Chi Chernobyl hedgehog? To shave or what this beauty and high grows back.
23.03.2020. Enter the category #quarantine
#cancer_girl then Park across the road does not go, and therefore sees little. I’m sure you can tell as much more and more entertaining. But individual pictures of the watch. Don’t know how some comment (you know what)) but our people, seem to have not freaked out enough. Yet, have trash and shit around. Or better yet, get sick. Otherwise, it seems, does not reach.
– Adele! Adelina! Immediately come to Mama! — aunt from the queue to the coffee kiosk (turn right from a distance) shuttlecock to the side of the Playground.
After the eleventh Creek resorts a girl of 4.
We agreed that do not go to playgrounds.
– But the kids play there…
– These children tonight the doctor will be injections! YOU want a shot?
The girl quickly shakes her head. The dispute is over.
On a Park bench sitting couple: the dude was in his 30s and a lady a little older. Sober, decently dressed. On the bench between them something is (saw the bag). They is something delicious you eat. Hands. Vatukoula with every bite, juicy LICK your FINGERS…
Mom on the run, next babe rides on the scooter.
Now we fail for you to buy. We have now money will be a little less than before…
Mom (heavy sighs, accelerated):
– Well, we told you… Coronavirus…
At the entrance to the market, the guard inhibits the people without masks. One is not allowed, the usual currently retired 65+ moving away, suddenly throws — scoops to a similar man.
– Hey, Bear, you have a mask there? Have cat food to buy, and they are not allowed.
It is important bear nods, reaches into his pocket, pulls out a crumpled, obviously they also used the mask. Stretches the other. He happily enough, immediately put on, returned to the store. It, of course, is now no delay…
Dali bude. I suspect the farther away, the dumb and absurd.
26.03.2020. Epidemic. Invented a new word — apocalyptic. This type of epileptics, but worse, because epileptics are objectively ill, and Witnesses Sect Coronavirus Apocalypse — if sick, more on the head.
I’m not a very good girl, though, because of their circumstances was much more tolerant towards people. And it is this category of citizens me, I admit, for a long time entertained. Even now, sometimes, fun, but annoying.
Yes, we all die, but some, for example, I will die sooner. And Yes, the person is not simply mortal, and sudden death, even a brick on the head for no reason does not fall © Voland, free presentation. Hysteria about the inevitable, for me, silly. Although, maybe I’m a freak. Don’t mean to offend, just when crazy — harm themselves. Really. I know.
#cancer_girl, meanwhile, walks in the Park without a mask, Bo there are few people. But the air — m-m-m, even eat with a spoon. Birds filled, bright grass, already have young leaves, and the smell of deep spring.
Went easy coronopifolia: I saw in the movies kissing first thought is “What it’s like NOW they’re kissing?!”
Still dropping is interesting. In addition to antiseptics and masks suggested reading: Metric “When death becomes life” trump “the Gift of Midas”. Mauger, last Canute — I’d like the money to be able to earn… And yet FB has offered “English for morons”. Anyway, look, pan Ckrbg interesting opinion of me.
Pills finish, with the temperature monitored. Money on the next course of therapy was collected. Really want to buy, as long as there is supply, and not increased the price. In fact, this is the worst thing what could happen pandemic. The clinic is anything to think I can say the drugs are coming, though with delays. As will be further — I do not know. Especially now in the clinic full — ponabezhali all who have returned from abroad (and was treated).
Thank you all for your help and support. I write this every time, because the truth is. You give me pieces of life.
I wish you health, good mood and healthy attitude.
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “Jackpot. The cancer is aggressive and inoperable. Exactly to Christmas” (part 1)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “the Beauty of cancer is that it gives a certain finality of life” (part 2)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “Thank you cancer, at least for what has become so greedy for life” (part 3)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “Why cancer came into my life? I’m sure there’s a reason” (part 4)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “if I had at least one adequate specialist six months earlier — and now would be a very different classifications” (part 5)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “I think death is the beginning of something else. So to fear it is silly” (part 6)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “Scare the mother “abandoned” look. Says: it’s like looking through and somewhere very far away” (part 7)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “Cancer is such a form of life” (part 8)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “Equator — 10 sessions of radiation therapy (5 foot, 5 Bosko) experienced” (part 9)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “the Specialist gave a maximum of 2 months of life” (part 10)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “the Pain was familiar. I understand that it will be to the end” (part 11)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “I don’t know how long it will last our waltz with canceron. But unconcerned about the fact that he would die young” (part 12)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “I’m an addict inevitably. No buzz, just stupid galitsa 3 injections a day, not to hurt the bones” (part 13)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “not afraid of Death. No, not drawn, just for some reason feel so. Fear of helplessness” (part 14)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “it is Unknown whether the next anniversary. So try to have time o (t)to be enough more life” (part 15)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “to treat Cancer, immune system injure. And she seems to be in a deep coma” (part 16)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “Obviously, there will come a time when you just stop treatment for lack of money” (part 17)
See also: Natalie Orlyanskaya: “Girlfriend came up with the idea, in my opinion, interesting: “Estimate — you will not die from cancer, but from the fashion industry!” (part 18)